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JASON, OUR HEARTS WENT WITH YOU...

       

 NO AMOUNT OF TIME...WILL EVER MAKE THE HEART... 
                                        THE SAME...AGAIN
TODAY WE SHOULD BE CELEBRATING JASON'S
25TH BIRTHDAY INSTEAD WE GO TO THE CEMETARY. TEARS POUR DOWN MY FACE AS I WRITE THIS. JANUARY 14TH, 1984, THE HAPPIEST DAY~JULY 14TH, 2002, THE DAY OUR WORLD ENDED
  NEW WEBSITE FOR JASON: WWW.JASONHIGHET.COM
    
   LONELY IS OUR HOME WITHOUT YOU,
   LIFE TO US IS NOT THE SAME.
   ALL THE WORLD WOULD BE LIKE HEAVEN,
   IF WE COULD HAVE YOU BACK AGAIN.
   THE LIGHT FROM OUR HOUSEHOLD IS GONE,
   THE VOICE WE LOVED IS STILL,
   A PLACE IS VACANT IN OUR HOME,
   THAT NEVER CAN BE FILLED.
   MAY THE GOD OF LOVE AND MERCY,
   CARE FOR JASON WHO IS GONE,
   AND BLESS WITH CONSOLATION,
   THE THREE OF US LEFT TO CARRY ON.
                               
                                         Silent night, lonely night
                                 There's no presents, here's our tree 
                                         Silent night, lonely night  
                                      Jason, please come back to me
               Having a child in heaven changes everything...
                  Others wrap presents and tell of gifts they gave
                         While we are searching for flowers to bring to 
                                               Jason's grave  
 
I'll be home for Christmas, you can count on me
I'll be home for Christmas...

I hear the words on the radio and in my mind.
I see your face, your eyes, smiling at me.
I am filled with incredible sadness
knowing that you won't be home for Christmas,
Not this year, not next year,
Not anymore years ever again,
no matter how many times the song plays.
Everywhere people are getting ready
to celebrate the season,
while we are left to mourn your death
and wonder if it will ever
feel like Christmas again:
if we will ever feel happy again
without you home for Christmas.
And knowing the answer is no...We will not. 
 
                                           

THE ABSENCE OF JASON IS EVERYWHERE
     AS LONG AS I CAN DREAM, AS LONG AS I CAN THINK
     AS LONG AS I HAVE MEMORY......I WILL LOVE YOU.
     AS LONG AS I HAVE EYES TO SEE AND EARS TO HEAR
     AS LONG AS I HAVE LIPS TO SPEAK...I WILL LOVE YOU.
     AS LONG AS THERE IS TIME, AS LONG AS I HAVE A BREATHE 
  TO SPEAK YOUR NAME....I WILL LOVE YOU! JASON, WE LOVE YOU.


   Full of laughter, life, love and fun
        JASON, our precious son
     This website has been created in honor of our forever loved
     son, Jason, who was born in Florida on January 14, 1984,
     and was killed on July 14, 2002, in Chandler, Arizona. His
     life lasted 18 1/2 years to the exact minute. We will never
     understand how life can be so cruel. Jason said goodbye
     and told his dad he'd be back in a little while. Ed told him
     to be careful and his final words were, "Don't worry dad
     I've got my helmet." And then that's it. Shortly later:
                      Jason is dead on the street. 
Do you know something about the "accident" that took our son's life?
PLEASE ANY INFORMATION whatsoever regarding the night Jason was 
killed: just email me.   Thank you
                              
      YOU SHOULD BE HERE WITH US JASON

       Your last parting wish we would have liked to have
         heard, and breathed in your ear our last parting
         word...only those who have lost are able to tell
         the pain in the heart at not saying farewell

 YES IT WILL HAUNT ME UNTIL I LEAVE THIS EARTH, WHY THAT
                      NIGHT YOU HAD TO DIE
When Jason was killed, we not only buried him but also the
life that we knew and lived everyday. When he died, we also
buried his future: wife, children, his wedding day and our future
grandchildren. Into the corner of Jason's casket is his once
happy dad: my husband. We buried my daughter's only
sibling. We buried her future nieces and nephews. There
is not enough room in Jason's casket for all the things that
died along with him. Dreams, hopes, joys, lives, hearts and
souls slipped into that casket with Jason. 

We visit with Jason all the time. However, we drive to the cemetary
to see him. To see your child's name etched on a headstone still feels
like a punch in the stomache. His name should be on a diploma, a
wedding invitation, a birth announcement, a business card anything
BUT NOT A HEADSTONE.

MISS YOU BEYOND WORDS & LOVE YOU EVEN MORE

           Remember Jason (Forever 18)

           Remember him with a smile today
           He was not one for sadness
           Remember instead the memories
           Of all the happy times
           Recall to mind the way he spoke
           And all the things he said
           His strengths, his voice, the way he walked
           Remember these instead
           His eyes always shined with laughter
           So much of him will never die
           But live on forever after
           As we loved you, so we miss you 
           In our memory you are near
           Loved, remembered, longed for always
           Bringing many a silent tear

NO FEAR: HE'S RIDING THE CLOUDS
             A life so young released to heaven....
             Left on earth we wonder "why?"
            But some are sent among us briefly...
            Some have spirits meant to fly 
            
         DEEPLY LOVED, PAINFULLY MISSED
It has been said, time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The
wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its SANITY,
covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is
                never gone...never gone
            
                         
                My heart stopped . . . with yours
                 My breath died  . . .  with yours
                  My life ended  . . .  with yours
      
                     TEARS WITHOUT END 
                     DAYS WITHOUT NIGHTS
                     NIGHT WITHOUT DAY 
                     TIME WITHOUT FORGETTING
                     FOOD WITHOUT TASTE
                     SLEEP WITHOUT REST
                     SORROW WITHOUT COMFORT
                     PAIN WITHOUT LIMIT
                     EMPTINESS WITHOUT BOTTOM
                     LIFE WITHOUT JASON
     
WE NEED TO KNOW THAT YOU ARE OKAY JASON BECAUSE
                             WE ARE NOT..............
   
                                             

     GOD RIPPED OUT OUR HEARTS......
AND THEN SAID GO ON AND LIVE NOW
         
We have lost our son. A fun, lovable boy who was only 18
years old. Jason died alone on the street without me (his mom),
or his dad by his side. We did not get to say goodbye. We did not
get to hold his hand. We did not get the chance to tell him one 
final time that we love him or, most importantly, not to be afraid. 
           A Tragic End to a Young Life
                          
 IF LOVE ALONE COULD HAVE SAVED YOU,   
          YOU NEVER WOULD HAVE DIED

          
  Jason is dead. It is still shocking to hear myself say it. There
  was nothing wrong with him. He was not sick. He was not old.
  He was a teenager. How could he be dead? He was active, he
  was healthy and so full of life. He was only 18. But life did not
  leave him on its own; his life was taken from him. It ended in
  a horrible way. He didn't just die; he was killed. Even saying
  he was in an accident is too kind. Dead..What a gut-wrenching
  word. One word that can literally make me sick. We did not
  loose Jason - we know where his body is laid to rest. To say
  he's gone implies he willingly went somewhere and may come
  back. Well, we have lost Jason and he is gone and the fact is:
  HE IS DEAD. He will not be coming back home. We will not 
  see him, hear him, touch him. His life here is over, it has  
  ended. That's it. No more. There was a past, but there is
  no future. Tomorrow will not be.....END OF STORY....
             
MAY A THOUSAND ANGELS BE WATCHING
                      OVER YOU
          
        NOW TOGETHER IN HEAVEN, JASON & SAMMI
The pain from the death of a child never leaves us for it is a
part of our lives that will forever be unfinshed and completely
unexplained.
 
       I AM SO TIRED....
       I am tired of crying for my child.
       I am tired of being depressed.
       I am tired of longing for my child.
       I am tired of not being happy.
       I am tired of telling people my son is dead.
       I am tired of my son being dead.
       I am tired of not being able to remember what joy feels like.
       I am tired of being angry.
       I am tired of feeling guilty.
       I am tired of missing my son.
       I am tired of being told it is a blessing I have an angel in heaven.
       I am tired of being misunderstood.
       I am tired of having to explain myself.
       I am so tired of death.
       I am tired of grieving.
       I am tired of grief.
       I am tired of asking why.
       I am tired of not getting an answer.
       I am tired of having to learn to live without Jason.
       I am tired of being indirectly told to "get over it".
       I am tired of reliving the night of his death over & over
         complete with tears and the emotional upheaval.
       I am tired of endless hours at the cemetery.
       I am tired of that street corner.
       I am soooo tired of not being able to remember...
       Every moment of my son's life.
       I am tired of being tired.                
                              
           
There are no words to describe the depth of our heartache
since Jason was so tragically killed. Our grief is overwhelming
and our son will remain forever locked in our broken hearts.

          
WE MUST NOW BEGIN THE LIFELONG JOURNEY 
OF ACCEPTING THE UNACCEPTABLE:  THE DEATH
OF OUR SON. JASON, YOU ARE LOVED FOREVER
AND ALWAYS UNTIL THE END OF TIME.
          
JASON MAY NOT HAVE BEEN HERE FOR A LONG
     TIME, BUT HE DID HAVE A GOOD TIME.

       
  MY TIME WAS SHORT, AND I LIVED LIFE 
 FAST, BUT WHEN ALL IS SAID AND DONE: 
              I REALLY HAD A BLAST!!! 
 
                                
As my life was ending tears fell from my eyes for all my life
I'd always thought I didn't want to die.I had so much to live
for, so much left to do. It seemed almost impossible that I was
leaving all of you
   
 A Real Friend is Hard to Find, Difficult to
            Leave and Impossible to Forget
      BUT NOW IT'S TIME I TRAVEL ALONE
         
      If you knew Jason: you know it was all about his friends, 
      motorcycles, dirt bikes, atvs, and riding, lifted trucks -
      it had to be high (really high) and it had to be loud, 
      the wheels, the rims, the size of the tires, his friends, 
      4-wheeling, sand, mud, and did I mention ALL OF HIS
      FRIENDS and hanging out!! *his friends were most
      important and above all else*  and don't forget: the hair!!!

 
          HE DIDN'T JUST RIDE HE COULD FLY
        
             
 We miss you so much, JASON, because....
              there's so much to miss. 
                 
                                       
   favorite LBZ cap,  always worn backwards
   
      
I DROPPED A TEAR IN THE OCEAN...WHEN THEY FIND IT...
           THAT'S WHEN I'LL STOP REMEMBERING YOU
        
        WE WERE BLESSED YOU WERE OURS 
                    IF ONLY FOR A WHILE
               
TO THE WORLD YOU ARE ONE PERSON,BUT TO US 
                    YOU ARE THE WORLD
                                 
   Bury your child and you bury your heart
If you are lucky enough to be living a happy life, how
wonderful for you. Plan your child's funeral, pick out 
a coffin; everything changes. Not one aspect of your
former life remains the same. Loose your child and 
you loose absolutely everything. Maybe in 10, 20 
years I will feel okay, but for now this is how it is.
 
    I can remember the happiness, but I
  
                 can't feel it anymore  
                   
        
I have lost a life-not my own, but it would have
been easier to have lost my own life than to have
lost the life I loved more than my own, JASON


                                    

          
             
                                                           
There is neither force nor foe that can ever remove the 
love we have for our children.
                                                  
WE ARE HERE, YOU & ME, SIDE BY SIDE FOR ALWAYS
You will always be my dad...as I sit and look down 
from the heavens above, I point at you and proudly   
say:  "look, look, over there, that's him:  
                     THAT'S MY DAD"
                
When this road gets lonely and the journey seems too hard & I get to feeling sick inside that I didn't get a card-If I close my eyes I can almost hear you say, "I love you DAD & I miss you ~ Happy Father's Day                         
    DEAR GOD:  PLEASE KISS MY SON GOODNIGHT
                                                                         
                               
       
   THE SADNESS, THE ANGER, THE LONLINESS ...HOW COULD HE BE
SUCH A SIGNIFICANT PART OF LIFE AND THE WORLD AND THEN ALL
   
              OF A SUDDEN JASON IS WIPED OFF THE 

                            FACE OF THE EARTH? 
             
 My dad is a survivor, which is no surprise to me. 
I walk with my dad each day to lift him when he's down. My dad is like a tower of strength.He is the greatest of them all. I am his power when he's sad. I hold his hand,I pat his shoulder and tell him I am okay Now as I watch over my saddened dad from the heavens up above..He says he's the one who's so proud of me,but I say it's my honor dad that I am called  YOUR SON
I WALK BESIDE YOU, WHEREVER 
YOU ARE, WHATEVER IT TAKES
NO MATTER HOW FAR                          
              
JASON & ED WERE MORE THAN FATHER & SON. THEY WERE BEST FRIENDS
                          WHEN JASON WAS KILLED, ED NOT ONLY
                                     LOST HIS ONE & ONLY SON
                    HE WAS ROBBED OF HIS BEST BUDDY FOR LIFE
   AND THAT WILL BREAK MY HEART FOR ED & FOR JASON FOREVER
       WE WALKED TOGETHER YOU AND I, A FATHER AND HIS SON
                          WE TALKED, WE LAUGHED, WE LIVED
                 WE HAD HOPES AND DREAMS FOR TOMORROW...
                              BUT TOMORROW DIDN'T COME
   WE WALKED TOGETHER YOU AND I, BUT ONLY FOR A SHORT TIME
                 FOR ALL TOO SOON IT ENDED LEAVING PIECES OF A
                                   BROKEN HEART BEHIND
                   
            
                              
 Allison, forever a sister to Jason--must now live
                          without her brother
       WHERE ARE YOU? PLEASE COME BACK HOME,
DON'T LEAVE ME HERE ALONE. JASON, LIFE WITHOUT
YOU HERE JUST ISNT  THE SAME.YOU ARE SO FAR AWAY
AND I MISS YOU MORE EVERY PASSING DAY. WHY DID
YOU HAVE TO LEAVE? ONE DAY DEATH TOOK YOU 
                AWAY FROM ME. JASON I LOVE YOU.
                                        MY BROTHER 
                                     NOW IN HEAVEN
                        
                                             
  You are my brother not by choice, but by the
   nature of our birth. I could not have chosen
  a better one,you are the best there is on earth 
                           A BROTHER IS FOREVER
         That is what they say. When you loose a loved 
         one their soul goes to heaven. That's what 
         happened to me for I lost my ONLY brother.
         I just always assumed Jason would be here
         forever. I know that I will see him again one
         day and I will never forget him ever because
                  I KNOW DEEP WITHIN MY HEART
                            A BROTHER IS FOREVER
                        
           There is always a face before me
           A voice I would love to hear
           A smile I will always remember
           Of a brother I loved so dear.
           Deep in my heart lives a picture,
           More precious than silver and gold,
           It is a picture of my brother,
           Whose memory will never grow old.
              
 Just when your life was the brightest, just
   when your years were the best, you were
      taken from us to a home of eternal rest.
               
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           OH!!  THE PAIN OF NOT SAYING GOODBYE
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Dear God,            
I know that Jason is home in heaven with you. I ask that you watch 
over him. Please send extra angels to help him adjust to being in
heaven and away from us. We are all here and he is not. He is alone.
He is young. He may need help. All I can do is pray. Is that enough? 
He did not want to leave us. With my last breath I beg of you to take
care of him. He was a good boy, a loving son and a great brother. 
Please send me a sign from heaven so I know Jason is in your hands.
                     Love from his broken-hearted mom
                                     
 A HEART OF GOLD STOPPED BEATING, TWO SHINING EYES AT REST
   GOD BROKE OUR HEARTS TO PROVE:  HE ONLY TAKES THE BEST!     
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            "WHAT DID I DO WRONG"

What did I do that went so wrong?
I tried to teach you to be wise and strong.
I looked forward to seeing you with family and home,
I didn't know it would be earth and stone.

I'll never see you walk down that aisle,
I'll never again see that wonderful smile.
My heart is breaking that much I can say,
I can't wait to see you on some distant day.

I am no longer afraid of dying,
Sometimes I think it's better than crying.
Our dear, Jason, one day we will be together,
And we will remain like that forever and ever.                         
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For parents whose child has died, time does so little except
to continuously remind us of exactly how much we have lost.
               
Jason could not wait to turn 21....And he never did....
Thanks to his friends for always leaving Jason a Heineken...
You do not get over it. You just get through it. You don't get by it,
because it is everywhere. It does not get better. It just gets
different. Each and everday...GRIEF PUTS ON A NEW FACE
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        Our hearts are deeply and mortally wounded for life
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              S E N D   T H E   B E S T
                                                
We lost our child, our beautiful and loving son.
He was the world to us and now he is gone. 
We will never be the same without him. Please
don't forget Jason. We want you to know that
he was here, that he was loved, that he was
one in a million. He is missed every second of
every minute of every hour of everyday and will
be forever and ever. 
                                                        
                          THE MENTION OF HIS NAME
The mention of Jason's name may bring tears to my eyes, but 
never fails to bring a smile to my heart and music to my ears.
            
If you really are my friend, let me hear the beautiful sound of his 
name. It soothes my broken heart and sings to my soul.
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We miss you, Jason, more each day for life is not the same. To 
Queen of Heaven we do visit, placing flowers there with care.
But no one knows our heartache when we turn and HAVE TO
LEAVE YOU THERE. We speak your name with pride, reliving 
our memories of you by our side. God has you in his keeping,
we have you in our hearts.
       WE'LL LOVE YOU, JASON, FOREVER!!!

As I write this, I still cannot believe Jason is dead. I still cannot believe
this is how his life turned out. No one can imagine when they first hold
their newborn baby that this joyful moment would, down the road,
lead into the worse possible scenerio: DEATH. Parents still worry 
about their children long after they are buried. The parent/protector
doesn't just end with the funeral. Our lives are tied up in the what 
ifs and the whys and the constant thoughts of Jason's last moments
alive, alone on the pavement that we are doing all we can to just
survive day after day in this nightmare called, "our life".
     
GOD BLESS YOU JASONWE WILL LOVE YOU
 UNTIL THE DAY WE
 DIEBE AT PEACE MY 
                 SON . YOU WERE THE BEST.
  
                         LATER  J   
                      
 
Tributes and Condolences
love you always   / Miss You So
HAPPY VALENTINES SWEET ANGEL..   / IRENE MOMMY TO ANGEL KAYLA XAVIER FOREVER (FEV. 14, 2009 )
DEAR JASON, SWEET ANGEL..HAPPY VALENTINE..WITHALL MY LOVE..IRENE, MOMMY TO KAYLA XAVIER..FOREVER.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEET ANGEL.....   / IRENE MOMMY TO ANGEL KAYLA XAVIER 4EVER (JAN. 14, 2009 )
Dear Jason...Happy Birthday sweet angel.God bless and give strength to all those that love and miss you so much...May your birthday be a lot of fun and flying free....love always...irene, mommy to angel.. Kayla Xavier ..forever..(PS. the back groun...  Continue >>
Just wondering   / Jason's Mom Alice
To whom it may concern: Just wondering if you have ever looked at Jason's website... Do you have a clue what has happened to us since Jason's death? What do you think happens at our house on birthdays, Christmas, holidays? Do you look at yo...  Continue >>
IN MY HEART AND ON MY MIND~JASON♥   / CATHY~MOM OF DAVID GIRAUD♫♫
There is a place in every heart, They call it Memory Lane, Where thoughts of loved ones lost, Forever will remain. God made this special place, When he first created man, For he knew it would be needed, As part of our life's plan. He knew when loved ...  Continue >>
Obituary / Final Words About Jason     Read >>
Sad Goodbye  / Jason Gone To Wherever Forever Is     Read >>
Sending Thanksgiving Wishes Your Way  / Dianne/Mom Of Angel Nicholas White (Connected by Angels )    Read >>
Thinking of you Bobbi  / For Jason's Sweet Sister     Read >>
For Jason  / We Do Love You     Read >>
We Remember Then  / Karen Hall (Kassie Hall's mom )    Read >>
I Can Only Imagine  / Dearest Jason     Read >>
God Only Knows  / Why? Jason     Read >>
Thinking Of You On Your Angelversary Dear Jason  / Denise Kneale (connected by angels )    Read >>
Thought of You  / Just For Jason     Read >>
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His legacy
JJ  
Our hearts are filled with the over-whelming grief of losing our son.  How do parents ever survive this loss?  Time does not heal anything.  It only makes you realize all of the things your child will never get to do.  Jason would have been a great dad - he learned from the very best. He would have been there for his sister.  Now she is all alone.  As parents, we tried to be there right by his side.  The only way to go on is to tell myself that God must have needed Jason.   For other grieving  parents that have had to bury a child as we have, my heart aches for you.  Watch over us Jason until we are all together again.  We love you and have been, and always will be, proud of you.  It was an honor to be your mom.
Jason  
Jason really did put as much living into each and everyday.  But, there was a lot yet to do and no life should be cut short as his was.  We were all cheated when Jason was killed.  He loved his family and was especially close to his dad.  Ed was always there for Jason.  There was a never ending list of projects they were working on together.  To this day, our garage sits as he left it.  When you have a Chevy 454 one-ton with a 24 inch lift, there is always something going on. He had lots and lots of friends and he loved just hanging out with all of the guys. 
Jason  


Jason's life came to a crashing halt on the night of July l4th, 2002.  Going out with his friends, he changed his mind at the last minute and took his motorcycle instead of the truck.  A bike is no match for a car and Jason was killed at the corner of Alma School and Summit.  Jason loved all things with motors and wheels.  He had been riding since before his feet could reach the ground.  He knew how to ride and he did so at every chance he got.  No matter where or when.  He could be found loading up the truck and going even on the hottest of Arizona summer days.  He loved Sycamore Creek for dirt bike riding and four-wheeling in his truck.  Jason never wanted to be alone.  He always had to have a friend with him.  We had an active garage and a cul-de-sac full of boys and their trucks.                                                                     

MY TIME WAS SHORT AND I LIVED LIFE FAST,BUT WHEN ALL IS SAID AND DONE: I REALLY HAD A BLAST!!

                  
REMEMBER JASON AND SMILE                           
        

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